When your idol falls, do you better value people sharing your life?

I was adored a clmate for many years,I compared all men I met with the image I had of him. Lately I met him again ( we lost contact since we finished college) , I was so happy and exited and expressed to him my feelings, and we started an ambiguous kind of friendship that soon ended. I discovered, he had nothing of the image I had in my mind. The idol was just an illusion and a great delusion. Since then I look at the persons in my life differently. I discovered that when I was compering them with the IDOL, they always where imperfect. Today I understand that they value so much and that I hurt them and myself. How You define what I did to my life? Did You experiment similar feelings? Was this a kind of masochistic behavior?